Open Your Eyes.

Good morning to all and hello. I'm having those cases which you can't sleep due to the fact that you have spent the entire day sleeping. Tossing and turning doesn't help, playing my psp doesn't either. So i turn to my lappy and i found myself typing away but i can't narrow down to the topic i want to write about. To compare myself with the other 2 writers, i'm far more secular. I mean let's face it, i don't take pride in politics, religious views or whatsoever. Because to me, everybody have their own way of thinking and that's all to it.

I found myself filled with Anger. Drown by sadness. Yet overwhelmed by happiness. Crazy? no. I found myself filled with anger. Anger at the current malay society. We found ourselves declining much much further than the times we still have free education. Hopefully, we will be able to make it far, instead of whining or read across typical headlines of underage sex or shotgun marriages. Truthfully, i had enough of such negative perceptions.

I've also found myself angry for some other reasons. Sometimes, i wonder what's the point of trying so hard when all those things you have done go unappreciated. I tried to find means and ways to get it done, even to the extend of using someone else's lappy, i guess it isn't good enough. I understand my latest work is not as good as others, but i rather have feedbacks then just being paid yet not showcased at all.

I am drown by sadness. 6 years have past, it's been a long time. Losing someone important in life is remorseful. I've regret it till date. I've never did get a chance to go up to him, and tell him that he's the greatest dad in the world. But one day, i'll be better than you are. Despite his tyranity over his children, we are all thankful. Without his methods, we won't turn out to be how we are today. I'll take over your position to be the family's pillar of support. Thanks and rest in peace dad. Hopefully one day, you can meet the love of my life.

I'm overwhelmed with happiness. For the simple reason, i've found her. Despite her history, her background, her lifestyle, i'm beginning to accept the fact that nobody's perfect and everybody deserve a second chance in life. I've learnt to forgive and forget. There's no need to get provoked over words or tall tales. All we need is the strength to carry on whenever we fall. Hopefully, we get to hear from Cold and Haniero that they have found that lucky girl. Till then.